One thing I don’t have to do very often is tell Kory off. Usually all I need to tell him is ‘no’ and he will listen and stop whatever it is that he’s not meant to be doing.
Just now I had to really tell Kory off.
After us both being unwell, I was glad to see Kory feeling a lot better today, the last few days have been hard and it’s never nice seeing your little one unwell. The last few nights Kory hasn’t been sleeping at all but last night he slept much better, he had a lie in this morning and he woke up in a very good mood. We had a lovely morning together, we ate breakfast, we played and watched tv, everything was going great.
But after dinner it’s like a switch had flicked and Kory just started having this huge toddler tantrum out of nowhere over a toy. I tried everything to calm him down but nothing was working, I took the toy off him and took him upstairs to bed thinking maybe he was tired and needed to take a nap but he just carried on and on… He started to kick and was throwing himself about, he was just getting louder and louder. I told him no and to stop but he wouldn’t listen. I really raised my voice at Kory, put him in bed and left the room. I could still hear him crying from the landing but I needed just a few minutes to myself to calm down because I could feel myself getting angry.
The crying didn’t stop and this was making me upset, I ended up going back in to him and putting my arm around him. A few more minutes of him crying and rolling around carried on until he finally gave in and fell asleep on me.
Why must he push and push and push? I didn’t want to have to shout, I’ve always said I don’t want to be one of those ‘shouty’ parents but there was just no reasoning with him whatsoever. Is there ever reasoning when it comes to a toddler? I never knew a toddler could make you feel so angry and upset.
Isn’t it funny how as soon as they fall asleep though you forget how difficult they’ve been. Like now, I’m not angry at Kory, I’m angry at myself, I just feel upset and majorly guilty. I still feel pretty unwell myself and could have done without this BS to be fair but either way I’m feeling like a pretty shit mum right now.