As a boy mum, I am used to the fact that my days consist of Kory wanting to wrestle, who can shout the loudest contests, farts and mud. And when he’s not wrestling me, he wants to cuddle me or sleep with me and that’s nice but some days when I’ve not stopped tidying, i’ve done the food shopping, unpacked and put it away and entertained him all morning (all before even having a second for myself!) it would be nice to be able to just sit down with a cup of tea and to just have a moment. But usually the second I sit down Kory will want to show me something or ask me for something and sometimes I feel like my child doesn’t leave me alone.
Even writing this blog post was a challenge!
I don’t mean to sound like a ‘bad’ mum and some of you may think I’m selfish for feeling this way but when you’ve been stepped on, heard ‘mum’ shouted for the 100th time, been pushed and accidentally run over by a bike all before dinner time as well as feeling like everything is getting on top of you, sometimes the demands and lack of space can all just get a bit too much.
I feel like as mums we’re not allowed to complain about being tired or wanting space from our children without someone saying something along the lines of ‘oh but you’ll miss this when they’re older’ or ‘make the most of your time with them’ those people need to listen up! I’m sure I will miss this when he’s older but right now, I’m exhausted and I do make the most of my time with my kid, I spend my life raising him! As mums we are allowed to feel things and we’re allowed to complain, it doesn’t mean we don’t love our children!
It just means we’re human.
I feel like my child doesn’t leave me alone because he doesn’t. Some days I can handle that, some days I can’t, some days I feel like supermum and some days I feel like I wanna cry. That’s what being a mum is.
My child doesn’t leave me alone.