When you’re a mum, looking after the kids, running a household and dealing with everything else that life throws at you all at the same time – sometimes you just need a break.
I understand that going to work all day as a parent isn’t fun or easy either. I get that I’m lucky enough to be able to stay home with my children. I haven’t always been a stay at home mum, I do understand the responsibilities and stresses of life outside of motherhood.
As a stay at home mum, when I say I need a break I don’t mean a holiday or a reward for doing my job which is looking after Kory and Kora every day. I’m talking about just being able to have five minutes to myself so that I can feel sane. I want and need a break from time to time, not because I’m bored or looking for some fun, I want and need a break because I put absolutely everything I am into staying at home and raising my kids and let me tell you something, it isn’t easy. In fact, it’s damn well hard some days.
I can admit that I need a break but I won’t ask for help and sometimes even when the help is there, I don’t accept it. Or won’t accept it shall I say. Not because I’ve got too much pride but because I feel like accepting help is me admitting that I find life as a mum hard sometimes and that makes me a failure. And even when I do get time to myself I just feel guilty the entire time. Guilty for ‘palming’ my kids off. Which I know is a load of rubbish and it’s silly for me to even feel that way but in my mind that’s how I think and I can’t help it.
So what do I do instead? I end up pushing myself until I feel totally empty with no energy for anything at all. Which is no good, is it? It isn’t good for me and it isn’t good for my children. Because although I feel like I’m being the best mum that I can be by being with them all the time, I’m not really am I because when I’m with them I’m doing the bare minimum with bare minimum effort because that’s all I can do. There is nothing else left for me to give. I can’t summon up the strength to give anything else because I’m pouring from an empty cup.
I really am my own worst enemy and I need to remember that it’s okay to accept help, it’s okay to admit that i’m struggling and it’s okay to have some time just for me and to actually enjoy that time without punishing myself for doing so. If I want to be the best mum that I can be, then I really do need a break sometimes and if I don’t want to go insane, then I need to do it for myself too, even if it’s just for an hour so that I can refuel.
Sometimes you just need a break. A break from the responsibilities of being a parent, a break from the craziness and even a break from the kids and that is totally okay. In fact it’s more than okay. It’s necessary.
3 thoughts on “Sometimes you just need a break”
At first, when I let Reuben started to go to his dad’s and I started getting my first “breaks” from parenting I felt guilty and like I was not a proper parent because I wasn’t parenting 24/7. I used to cry a lot too without him. Then I started using that time to get the house clean, study or simply relax and when he came home I was a recharged mama & I found parenting easier. Nowadays it does depend on my mental health but I’ve learnt that break is invaluable and necessary. Otherwise it’s just me on my own trying to do everything and that wears me out so fast its unreal ❤️ take time for you ❤️
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I think as parents we all feel guilt over a lot of things even if we have nothing to feel guilty for. I know that I give myself a really hard time as a mum and I don’t need to. I think like you from now on I’m going to make use of my child free time to get things done and to take some time for me too. I need to, it’s unrealistic for me to think that I can do it all without ever taking time for myself. We all need to recharge and it makes parenting that bit easier. Trying to do everything on your own is hard enough without trying to do it whilst you’re running on empty xxx
I’m really glad to hear it! You will feel better for it ❤️
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